There is no guarantee♥
That this life is easy

The Mistress♥

Ting Ting is my name.
I'm a purple + black lover.
I might look strong on the outside,
but definitely weak, inside.


Her Mood♥

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Don't even touch this

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The song When i look at you by Miley Cyrus
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reading back our msn history.

& i realise it was me who made all these shit happened.

i made uu tired of me.

my fucked up attitude.

why cant i give in to uu more?

why cant i talked to uu nicely?

why cant i fucking understand that uu are only a 18years old boii who need to learn how to treat gurl right?

if i did not talk to uu like that, things wouldn't have faded.

why am i so fucking stupid to understand all these fucked shit?

i screwed the relationship up myself.

i screwed something i really love myself.

is all my fault.

im really really sorry.

i cant talk to uu now.

i cant care for uu.

i dunno how are uu doing there.

i wanna noe, i wanna care, i wanna love,

but ii cant.

because uu rejected me, totally.

i hate myself.

i hate myself.

i fucking hate myself.

i love you so deeply much, but do you? 4:28 AM

tu ran hen xiang ni.

wonder if uu are feeling the same way as ii am.

i love you so deeply much, but do you? 5:26 PM

i wanna learn putt putt soon <3 (:

i love you so deeply much, but do you? 10:54 PM

looking back at the pass memories, compare it with now, is just fucking insane pain.

why did things change so much?


i love you so deeply much, but do you? 8:21 PM

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i love you so deeply much, but do you? 4:27 PM

& finally,

i got the entire clear picture of what is in your mind.
i don't care if what you tell your friends and what you told me isn't the same anymore.

1-2weeks time to patch, i don't think so.

the hurt that you gave me, was so harsh and pain that it covered all the happy memories that we once had.

or perhaps, i should say, it overtaken the love that you gave me.

i did not block you in facebook.

but i private it from every single one.

so don't think im trying to run away from things.

im facing every single shit that you are giving me, strongly.

is time i should open my heart for another someone to come into my life.

someone who i can love and care and get the same in return.

as for you, i don't deny that you will always have a special place in my heart.

i don't deny that i still love you.

but the hurt is just so unbearable.

god is now letting me have a taste of how Chris felt.

& i completely understand it.

you will only understand how i felt till you found someone who you really love in the future, but i seriously hope, the feeling that im going thru now wont applies on you.

please please take care.

& all the best in life.

& from today onwards, i shall have this 2 rings on my finger.

till the day, i can let everything go, i will take both off.

the promises and love that i gave,

is something that i realise, i did fulfill it.

it's just you.

what do you really want?

i love you so deeply much, but do you? 2:35 AM

is nearly 5am.

im feeling really exhausted but my brain just cant seems to rest.

wo bu ming bai, wei se me shuo bu ai jui bu ai?

what are the things that you need, that even if we are together, you cant do? cant get?

am i not giving uu the freedom that you always need?

im not expecting much from you, really.

i just hope you realise how much you really meant to me.

how much i need you in my life.

fate is in our own hand.

if you think you can, you can.

why is it so hard for you to open up your heart to see all these?

you had been treating me really cold.

or maybe this is your naturally reaction to me now.

wo hen xin ku ke shi wo zhen de bu xiang fang qi.

zai ai wo zhen de you ne me nan mar?

chen jing ai wo de na ge nan ren dao di zai na li?

wo hai zai shun zao.

wo hai zai ten dai.

i love you so deeply much, but do you? 4:48 AM