Give Me A Reason To Live On

The Mistress♥

Ting Ting is my name.
I'm a purple + black lover.
I might look strong on the outside,
but definitely weak, inside.

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Sok Kim Pei Man
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Michie Sabrina
Kc Hui Ying
Audrey Sera
You Jin Rachael
Su-Lyn
Wan Lin
Yvonne Ong Nura
Charmaine Wei Wen
Nathira Jia Li
Elsie Jasmine
Eevonne Dalina
Aliya Kavitha
Kathy Goh Baby
Wei Yan Selina
Xuan XiaoMin
Jiray Ah Jon
Xiao B Snow Mei
Leon Jeanette
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iiMagicJYii Yanny
Aikemii YukariHoney
Si Yuan Jocelyn
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Credits

Don't even touch this

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Designer: Miss Vunique
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Inspired by:
The song When i look at you by Miley Cyrus
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life lately goes so fast till i could barely catch up with my breath.

way too many unexpected thingy happened.

work, life, relationship and lost and found feeling.

im pretty away from cyber nowadays.

as idk what can i do on9.

so yea.. more to realistic which was funnn but what will it lead to?

idk.

there are so many things that happened which couldn't give me an exact answer to it.

none of it is clear.

my relationship is getting more and more complicated each day.

tho is happy but still..

where will it lead it to?

what will be the last and final path?

will it be the correct decision in the end?

idk idk idk..

no1 knows.

im happy with things now..

seriously, i am..

and i know im being greedy and selfish.

wanting more than a person love,care and attention.

but things are just so wonderland for me to see the truth and wrong of each things that im doing.

i know i will definitely get hurt in the end of the day.

a big big definitely.

how am i suppose to avoid all this?

work was just so so lately.

but i go a feeling,

that every1 are looking at me like im some kind of weird person.

or like im bootlicking my upper.

is that what you guys think?

or is this how the working environment are suppose to be?

i serious dont wanna give a f*cking damn about whats happening around me.

im too lazy and tired to face such things again.

it happened once b4..

now is like..

history is repeating again.

~~my best friend at work seems so unsecured telling me her/his problem.~~

things just change like that.

now i really choose to keep quiet.

ignore things that is happening.

it will be better.

definitely so much better than now.

i wanna go on a long vacation.

enjoy the wind breeze.

away from sorrow,conflict and confusion.

i wanna ~~die~~ LEAVE to somewhere quiet, peaceful with no problem to think of.

i just wanna be me..

be myself..

can i?

i love you so deeply much, but do you? 7:13 PM

finally received your smsed today.

after close to a month of no news.

leaving me clueless.

had been wishing you to come back.

and yea, at least tell me whats going on.

always hoping that you are fine and going well with your life.

been asking cp and dii "why why why?"

so many why that they cant answer or maybe, dont have an actual answer to it.

leaving me alone, made my life spinning, cried to sleep.

and the point is?

idk.

received your smsed this morning,

same thingy, "good morning mummie, how are you?"

somehow, i missed it..

but i wasnt smiling like how i owez normally reacted.

my head just start spinning.

asking to myself "why? how ? when? what?"

you said is bcoz we faded badly.

but after so much that we encounter, so much that we had go thru,

you just let it fade? dumping me aside and say that uu are sorry now?

i seek the whole entire world just to get your news.

till i dont know what to do.

can only cried to myself, cp and dii.

what had uu been doing when i was thinking of you?

missing you?

thinking about the past?

you said "i didnt know that i meant so much to you".

what is this?

what kind of shit is this?

do you worth my tears?

i dont know.

im just feeling so much pain now.

till i wanna be left alone.

THINK !

what had turn us into this stage?

i know i neglected you b4 but i was really bz.

i was.

i tried talking to uu over the phone, but uu cant.

ben, what else do you want me to do?

i dont know.

i wonder now,

is getting your sms a good thingy or bad thingy?

i am still thinking of you but at least moving on with my life slowly.

but now, im back at where we 1st ended.

with more pain, more thoughts, more hurt.

wtfuck is happening.

im lost, really lost..

tonite will be the night that i will fall for you.

over again,

dont make me change my mind.

i wont live to see another day,

i swear its true,

because a gurl like you is impossible to find.

impossible to find.

i love you so deeply much, but do you? 7:00 AM

the front cover of the box ! cuuutttteeee ~

sweet isnt it? (: .. it just cheer me up.. like ALOT ! <3

the above picture was a box of chocolate that someone bought for me when she was in hongkong disneyland (:

how i wish i could fly over to disneyland myself =(

i so wanting to visit those places.

wonder when is my turn. D:

having bread with half boil egg for breakfast today (:

hot milo as my drink.

slept at around 2am last nite.

i just couldnt get myself to sleep.

i dont know why.

slack at maple for the whole entire day.

LOLs.

went pianus with ah jon, dii and heaven.

died twice.

kn'n de luh.

nway, 1st time experience, so yeah. (:

played mega yesterday.

every1 kept disiao-ing ah jon.

LOLs.

kelian de him =x

oh yah oh yah !

nicest aka ray sang elmo song in nicest version and ting ting version yesterday !

ahhhh..

so funnie+cute can ! :D

LOLs.

and yeah, he beatbox a lil to let me hear (:

nice nice !

going out today to catch the movie "UP".

didnt manage to watch it the other time =/

so yea, me really really wanna watch it.

cp slept really early last nite. =/

guess he was really really tired. =(

sorry for playing too much till ii miss your call okie. <3

and i did something stupid last nite.

to make sure dii wont even think of hurting himself again.

so yeah, send him those pic and i guess he was really feeling guilty.

-dii, just make sure uu NEVER hurt urself again. owez rmb that some1 do care for uu okies? and ur life is never empty. at least there's your school mate and us (: -

good luck to dearest ray in his coming exam.

its gonna be tough but im sure uu are also handling it well. (:

jiayou dude !

i love you so deeply much, but do you? 9:43 AM

yea.. captain balls ! LOLs.. ii spotted julian ! awww .. LOLs..

and the clearing up section. where am i? i escape with my manager to go and bath =x

spot the pretty sexy gheys? x]

right, finally i can blog..

after dont know how long.

java script thingy.

i dont know how to settle it.

was sick last week.

for the whole entire week.
flu+cough+fever+body aching+sore troat.

yea.. symtom of H1N1 but nahh.. boh ler =x

so i was on mc on monday but i did drop by office for awhile.

tuesday work but until 4.3opm nia.

my manager keep asking me to go back and stop working edi.

LOL.

wednesday mc.

thursday work until 1pm.

tio force to go back home again.
and yea.. yesterday (:

so dii was like pei-ing me last week lar (:

it was like nice luh.

got a lil urguement with cp.

same old thing but after that was okie edi luh (:

what to do.

im such a forgiving person. :x

oh yah.. spoken with ck on the phone the other time.
i 4got when.

and yeap..

his singing was WOOT !

seriously, strong and firm voice.

neat (:

on the 14th of August was our company outing.

went to sentosa luh.

was playing playing playing than half way thru raining.

than hot. than rain.

guess that is why im sick luh x.x

when to 9 pub after that with the BIL folks.

drank chivas+greentea.

nice tho.
oh yah,and it was pei yee b'day (:

played cards and 1more game.

dont know what.

slack till around 1am than go home together with them.

my today post is so messsyyy..

yea.. coz is like.. ii lost track where to write and where to stop. =x

nway,

things happen quite unexpectly yesterday.

way lots of things that happen.

happy? confuse? idk.. (:

but yea.. i guess its memorable <3

love you the way you are <3

i love you so deeply much, but do you? 3:36 PM

im still in the office now !

working working and more work.. ~ =/

will leave at around 9pm i guess..

tttiiireedddd !!!

i love you so deeply much, but do you? 8:34 PM

woke up like 10.30am on sat.

read my sms.

thanx guys for those wishes thru sms,facebook and blog tags (:

mummie wishes me happy birthday.

ahh.. sweet rite?

and her present was a small gold key :D

tho is small but is pure gold okie.

when i received that present,

i took and bite it. =xoh yeah.. ii shouted "pure gold !!!" =x

LOL!

the box (:

the gold key.. i wonder why is there a bear -.- .. thanx mummie (:

so i was playing pet society and slack in maple while waiting for hubby to arrived (:

mummie brought bro and i for mcd at around 6pm.

6.30pm, hubby texted me and told me his already standing in front of my house door.

rushed home with my maid,

and saw him there,

standing with a box of cake and a bouquet of white lilys ! x3

1st view of the flower (:

a closer view ! (: .. nice rite ! :D .. i love it sia

and so i was pretty sad,

coz i forgot to take a picture of my cake before i cut it ! T.T

how could that happened? =(

AHHHH ! nvm.. hubby said he will buy another 1 for me next time =x

and at around 9.30pm.

we drove to pasir ris park,

together with bro.

bought drinks and snacks,

sitting beside the beach,

looking at the red moon and stars.

it was like really really niceee..

i owez wanted to do this (:

and yea.. finally (:

called dii to talked to him.

and he finally say his b'day wishes to me.

so touched and sweeettt can :D

thanks dii (:

drove to marina bay after that.

hang around in the city before we drove home.

reached home at around 1.3oam again.

slept at 3am

LOL.

thats all for today.

will update moreeee ! (:

nites peoples.

thanx for bringing numerous of joys into my life.

3rd year celebrating my b'day with uu.

and it was always great (:

ai ni dar x3

i love you so deeply much, but do you? 10:56 PM

o8/o8/2009 was my big day (:

yeap.. i turned 21st on this special day.

went out on friday with mei tong, kitaro and sok kim after work.

headed to bugis.

met sok kim there and they pass to me my b'day present !

it was a nike bag!

thanx alot guys (:

it was really lovely.

my new nike bag <3

had dinner at Seafood Harvest Restaurant.

the food was great.
had bake rice there.

sok kim is definitely enjoying it (:

kitaro and mei tong enjoying their seafood platter. extremely big plate. LOL (:

walked around after that,

pass by the neo print shop.

so we went in and play with 2 machine.

LOL!

reminded me of school days.

it was fun tho.

but tiring as well coz uu are given like 5sec to pose.

the picture came out great. (:
sok kim ! im waiting for uu to past that photo to mei tong ! dont 4get okies (:

went TCC to slack and chat.

drank ice blended chocolate.

sat there from 10pm-12am.

LOL.

they got nth to do so they kinda like disiao me.

ask me to stand alone,ordered me to hold my nike bag and take a pic of me. =/

so many ppl looking at me can? ._.

paiseh to the max =(

but nvm lar..

at least every1 was happy (:

counted down till my b'day.

and they ordered 2 slices of cake for me.

1 chocolate cake and 1 more cheese cake.

the chocolate taste extremely bitter =/

thats what expensive pure chocolate taste like ii guess.

bitter !! =/

and yes, this is what happened when 4 smoker sit and slacker together. LOL :x

sok kim drove me home.

so i reached home like around 1+am.

took my bath and slept around 3am.

thanx guys for counting down to my b'day and still have to drive back to jb after that.

i was really touched (:

really.

love uu guys lots ! x3

Labels: 1st day of my b'day celebration (:

i love you so deeply much, but do you? 10:18 PM

today is finally FRIDAY ! (:

me love friday alot alot alot !!

and long weekend ahead !! ^^

am i a happy gurl or what?

hoho !

reached home around 10pm last nite.

went out with my dearest girl friend pei man. (:

slacked at coffee bean.

together with ice blended chocolate and a raspberry cheesecake.

sinful sinful. :D

talked n talked n talked.

love is just so complicated, dont you think so?

you know eventually will get hurt BUT yet you just cant resist that happy moment.

tho happy n beautiful things dont last 4eva,

but perhaps, is the memories that kept everything going.

gosh.. whats with the both of us uh? LOL !

goin out with mei tong, kitaro and sok kim after work (:

to bugis or orchard i guess.

still not sure yet.

ooohh..

i just love having them around me to keep me bzzz talking.. =x

update more tomorrow (:

time to work !!

i love you so deeply much, but do you? 8:22 AM

thousand of question going thru my mind..

why? why did it had to happen? why did you have to treat me like that? why show me attitude?what mistake did i made? why are you pissed? why why why?

but is okie..

it no longer matter.

that happened yesterday.

today is a new starting.

no way im gonna think of what happened yesterday.

and spoilt my mood or being retarded emo.

ooh oohh oohh..

btw, i bought a new hp stripe with an eeyore on it yesterday at compass point!! ^^ ..

happiness ! (:

i love you so deeply much, but do you? 8:33 AM

is been ages since i last blog.

weird.

blog format all gone.

i dont know why.

but is pretty hard for me to blog edi. x.x

so yea.. is either i create a new blog or stop blogging.

im in the office now.

stomach cramp to the max.

blood clot. blood clot.

my manager wanna bring me to see a doc but ahh.. =/

life lately was great.

yesterday was my 1st day of work after a long 1week mc last week.

high risk of H1N1! HAH !

why didnt i die? =/

asthma just keep attacking me till i did not sleep.

thanx to little bro and cp for pei-ing me last week (:

at least im not so rot at home.

alot of unexpected things happened.

too sudden.. but yeah.. happy moment (:

finally felt being appreciated.

why didnt it happened earlier? =/

oh well.. more to come.. maybe?

reached home around 7.30pm last nite.

took my bath and went in my room straight away.

called magas dii..

talked talked talked until both cried.

ahh.. really sorry to make you sob too =/

cp called after that..

so chat till i slept like around 10pm.

stomach really hurts to the core.

and what ii remember was,

cp keep talking like x-family ppl. -.-

YOU ARE NOT XIA TIAN ! -.-

great..

work time.

long weekend for this week..

+ is my b'day.

celebrating with jaybee friends maybe in clarke quay on friday.

sat with chris ii guess if he will be able to make it.

and sunday with my family(:

monday any plans?

probably a big YES (:

i love you so deeply much, but do you? 7:56 AM