starting to blog again.

at least, i can throw all my feeling out, here. somewhere that i can talk to.

things hasn't been going very smoothly for me. or should i say, totally ain't smooth.

the almost 2years r/s that i build up, that i put all my hope into it, just vanish into thin air.

what else can i say?

probably i just ain't a girl that he wanted.

maybe, I'm just a passer by, who stop by each country, looking at how beautiful the place is, and leave with only memories left in my mind.

and finally i realise, LOVE isn't everything to you.

at least, it is, to me.

i don't wanna let go,

even if I'm feeling lots a pain now.

I'm giving everything that i have and what i don't have to gain every last chance.

i just want things to be back to how it was.

him to care and love me.

am i really asking too much?

i felt the gap, i felt the distance.

but I'm just shifting my attention away from all these.

he told me "i will hurt you in the future", but why would you if you continue loving me and put effort and hope in it?

age gap.

i don't feel any of it, so why are you feeling so?

no one, no one can understand what I'm going thru now.

smile? how long can i have this fake smile?

him?

how long can we survive this battle that we are going thru now?

all i can do now is pray to god, to let everything go back to how it used to be.

to let him realise that if there's a will, there's a way.

to let him realise that, i do love him. deeply lots.

someone, anyone, please give me an answer to all these.

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