reading back our msn history.
& i realise it was me who made all these shit happened.
i made uu tired of me.
my fucked up attitude.
why cant i give in to uu more?
why cant i talked to uu nicely?
why cant i fucking understand that uu are only a 18years old boii who need to learn how to treat gurl right?
if i did not talk to uu like that, things wouldn't have faded.
why am i so fucking stupid to understand all these fucked shit?
i screwed the relationship up myself.
i screwed something i really love myself.
is all my fault.
im really really sorry.
i cant talk to uu now.
i cant care for uu.
i dunno how are uu doing there.
i wanna noe, i wanna care, i wanna love,
but ii cant.
because uu rejected me, totally.
i hate myself.
i hate myself.
i fucking hate myself.
i love you so deeply much, but do you? 4:28 AM