life lately goes so fast till i could barely catch up with my breath.
way too many unexpected thingy happened.
work, life, relationship and lost and found feeling.
im pretty away from cyber nowadays.
as idk what can i do on9.
so yea.. more to realistic which was funnn but what will it lead to?
idk.
there are so many things that happened which couldn't give me an exact answer to it.
none of it is clear.
my relationship is getting more and more complicated each day.
tho is happy but still..
where will it lead it to?
what will be the last and final path?
will it be the correct decision in the end?
idk idk idk..
no1 knows.
im happy with things now..
seriously, i am..
and i know im being greedy and selfish.
wanting more than a person love,care and attention.
but things are just so wonderland for me to see the truth and wrong of each things that im doing.
i know i will definitely get hurt in the end of the day.
a big big definitely.
how am i suppose to avoid all this?
work was just so so lately.
but i go a feeling,
that every1 are looking at me like im some kind of weird person.
or like im bootlicking my upper.
is that what you guys think?
or is this how the working environment are suppose to be?
i serious dont wanna give a f*cking damn about whats happening around me.
im too lazy and tired to face such things again.
it happened once b4..
now is like..
history is repeating again.
my best friend at work seems so unsecured telling me her/his problem.
things just change like that.
now i really choose to keep quiet.
ignore things that is happening.
it will be better.
definitely so much better than now.
i wanna go on a long vacation.
enjoy the wind breeze.
away from sorrow,conflict and confusion.
i wanna die LEAVE to somewhere quiet, peaceful with no problem to think of.
i just wanna be me..
be myself..
can i?
i love you so deeply much, but do you? 7:13 PM