Give Me A Reason To Live On

The Mistress♥

Ting Ting is my name.
I'm a purple + black lover.
I might look strong on the outside,
but definitely weak, inside.

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boring weekend. =/

got nth better to do luh.

went out with boon huat, pei yee, junior and ivan for dinner on friday nite.

had steamboat at chinatown.

yumm yumm..

not bad not bad.. (:

helped xuan to be his whole day hb mule yesterday.

grats lvl149 (:

while hb-ing him,

ii continue watching my witch yoo hee.

the movie is kinda draggy ler -.-

ii just wanna know the ending faster luh.

my voice was terrible yesterday.

fucking like frog! =/

but today was great edi ! ^^

back to normal!!

was at maple for the whole day today.

pei-ed xuan with his rush quest.

went papu as well.

chatted on the fone with him.

his rite,

we got so much in common.

somehow,

it might be a good thing,

but in another way,

it might not be as good as uu think.

i got nth to write about ler.

ii just felt that,

in such a short time,

there can be alot of changes.

my life,

ii just cant follow up with the speed of changes.

neither do ii wanna be drowned by it !

again!

jiayou bahs ! (:

when things got so complicated,

you just wanna take a long vacation,

and 4get everything about it.

but how long can you run away from it?

i just wanna breath.

i love you so deeply much, but do you? 7:25 PM

work was like fucking puii yesterday.

yeah..

shes back..

my workload was cut into half.

give her back whatever shes doing.

than she come and screw me up for this and that thing lar.

nabeh _l_

say i mess up her process flow.

cheebai..

than YOU GO AND DO YOURSELF lar.

i stayed till 9+pm or even 10pm just to clear your fucking stuff and yet you complain after 1month?

still wrote an email to GM to complain.

lucky my manager helped me and shoot uu back.

ahbor i die..

my fault again!
everything also my fault!!

nabeh.

think ii should you "cheebai po" just like how kitaro name you.

hhmph!

left the office at 9pm yesterday.

not bcoz ii got things to do lar.

it was bcoz ii slack with mei tong and kitaro. :x

go home also got nth to do.

might as well chit chat and smoke with them luh (:

was planning to go sing k in jb luh.

me wanna go ! D:

guess ii will spent more time in jb now bahs (:

frwens <3

oh yah ! oh yah..

i shall continue my leave story!

SUNDAY

reached melaka around 4+am.

slept around 6am. -.-

was fucking exhausted can??

i was like so quiet on our journey back to melaka.

guess ii really dunch know what to say.

woke up at 11+am.

saw uu and ur bro (:

heehee..

the 1st thing alvin said was,

"ting ting, ur hair long liao ler"

LOL ! :x

yea.. this is the longest length that ii kept for my whole entire 21years old ! :x

took my bath.

than chris drove us for lunch (:

had snacks.

potato snacks and slice cakes.

the 1 uu can only get in melaka i think.

ii dunch see such cake in sg neither jb.

my favourite <3

melaka change alot luh.

was driving all around.

when to Mcd drive thru to get vanilla corn ice cream! ^^

and if uu guys know me well,

ii hardly eat the ice cream,

i only want that corn ! :x

so stupid chris helped me to suck all the ice cream and gave me the corn :D

and he gave his to me too ! :D:D

uu should see his face when the whole entire ice cream is in his mouth.

want to open scare drip,

dunch open than inside so cold :x

LOL !
funnie funnie.

went in "clan" .

is a place where ppl pierce and tattoo.

we decided to tattoo bahs (:

maybe next month.
on our hand.

the design is seriously niceee luh.

hopefully mummie allow D:

which i know chances are very slim.

had duck mee for dinner.

and my favourite honeydew dessert ! <3

than after that,

thought of going for satay but ii buey tahan liao.

stomach gonna burst ! ._.

went home, played with snowball (:

n thats my doggie :D

saw the pic up there?

cute rite?!!

is been with me 2-3years le bahs.

eversince my 19th b'day from chris ii guess (:

growing well thanx to aunty.

1 more thing,

wanna say something to person.

frwens hu are close to me should know who is it.

dunch need me to spell his name out (:

things change after ii was back from msia.

you told me that ur feeling faded abit by abit even b4 ii went msia.

i know,

i can feel it that when my feeling faded too.

but than again,

just like what i told you,

human stupid once is more than enough.

there wont be a 2nd time that im gonna make myself look like a fool in front of you.

you might be wondering why would i wanna act strong,

but acting strong is so much better than being weak in front of you.

i tried being the best companion but companion will owez be a companion.

no future for that.

this time,

i wont get emo because of you.

neither will i feel sad coz is your own lost for not having me (:

no way im gonna pull you back again,

if i do,

it will be my greatest mistake.

im cold blooded de.

if YOU were some1 else,

you should know how i will play and revenge back.

but dunch worried,

i wont do such things to you (:

places where theres you,

i wont wanna go.

you said you are not a hongster,

but seriously,

uu are behaving like one.

and i care no more about it.

go ahead and mix with more girls,

and owez remember,

"what goes around come backs around".

understand what it mean silly? (:

so yea,

remain as frwen is the best solution.

no commitment towards you.

no responsible towards you either.

and dont worried,

i will move on with my life without you happily and stronger.

i will NEVER fall again.

understand? (:

wo zhi shi ni de ying zhi.

yong yuan pei zhe ni ke shi ni kan bu dao,

ye gan shou bu dao.

xian zai de ni he wo,

zhi shi "cha jian er guo" bahs.

i love you so deeply much, but do you? 6:58 AM

my leave end so soon D: ..

and today is a working day again.

AHH !

how ii wish today is friday,

tomorrow onwards is my leave ! :x

okie okie.

time to strike again!!

im sure serene gonna ask me lots n lots of Q !

hais..

probably end of june,

i will be fully taking over mortgage.

just like what nura told me bahs. =]

property/housing loan SUX big time ! D:

let me recall about my leave.

SATURDAY

woke up like around 9+am.

drag time, sitting in front of the pc until 11am while taking my breakfast.

took a cab down to kranji,

got up that yellow bus and off to sg checkpoint.

oh well,

no changes in sg checkpoint,

BUT when i reached msia checkpoint,

i was swearing and cursing.

NO BUS LANE??

!@#$%^

jam together with those cars.

freaking stupid.

and i need to walk freaking llllloooooonngggggg to reach city square.

reached city square,

i fucking lost my way !!

can you imagine,

the place where i slack n chill for almost 5 damn years back at high school,

and yet I CAN LOST MY WAY !! -.-

im not exaggerating it,

but yeah,

way too many changes ler.

jie was waiting for me in the car park. (:

she drove me to get sok kim present.

and i got her a seed handbag.

how much does it cost?

LOL !

Rm1xx (:

just hope that she like it lar..

after that,

went to do my hair.

cut it and dye back my purple colour ^^ .

lurve it !

that salon never fail me (:

after that,

called sok kim than tio kan ! :x

saying "WHY SO LATE? WHERE ARE YOU? WHAT TIME ARE YOU REACHING? WHO SEND YOU OVER?"

all the W came out ! :x

okie lar..

ii know is my fault lar.

i reached late lar..

paiseh luh ! D:

rush home, took my bath and got a cab straight to sok kim house.

reached there around 6+pm luh.

lai lai and grace reached there edi (:

than was kepo-ing in the kitchen,

in her room too ! :x

than ii buay tahan,

miss my witch yoo-hee destiny song,

played it in youtube.

AHHH ! <3

keep repeating n repeating until sok kim say,

"stop being emo n come here lar..."

tio kan again ._.

im missing some1 what ! -.-

had our dinner than FINALLY the rest of the frwens arrived. (:

saw mei tong, kitaro, jasmine, eric, sera, ah tiang and her ex or current or whatever lar,juivy, Jia li and Wan hui (:

too bad pei man is not around ! D:

had chilling session,

drank 1 bottle of beer and my whole face start to blush. -.-

yea.. it get red so easily. -.-

smoking while drinking <3

tooks lots of pic but is in sok kim n jas camera !

HELLLLLOOOO !!

*wave wave*

pics pl0x !! D:

so we stayed till around 11+pm,

chris called and we went over to show him the way to sok kim house.

was like so stunned when ii saw him.

was totally speechless.

and i just walked away. ._.

okie.

im mean..

but i really dunno what to say.. -.-

stay till 12am,

cut cake again.

than i smash the cake to sok kim face ! :X

it was by plan lar !

not all my fault lar ! D:

than i pulak tio smash cake by kitaro ! ._.

got sand de can? D:

went in to my mouth ._.

chris wanted to smash her back but she run away.

LOL.

than go n wash lar. -.-

face oily de. D:

left sok kim house at around 12+am bahs.

ii saw tears of joy from her face (:

and im really glad im able to be there this time.

hop on to chris car,

and i drove in the highway from machap to melaka !!!

omg omg omg.. so excited.

speed till 120-130km/hour nia..

coz the car cannot really take it luh.

scared it will die off half way thru.

and i drove without lisense ! :x

lalalas ~

btw,

so sorry jasmine,

didnt make it for your 21st b'day the other time.

all OLD liao ! D:

lai lai next !

than me ! _l_

can marry liao lar..

see hu is the 1st one :x

rite, this is only for SATURDAY event.

to be continue for sunday and monday ! :x

i love you so deeply much, but do you? 6:56 AM

left the office at 10.30pm yesterday ! x.x

together with miki and rina. -.-

record breaking.

zzzz..

reached home around 10.45pm.

took my bath,

slept around 11+pm.

now i cant even open my eyes. -.-

whatever!

today is FRIDAY ! :D:D:D

manage to file my stuff yesterday.

yes,

i HATE to do all this fileyourdocument thingy.

after 1month only i start to do it! =x

yea yea..

lazy me.

work was so so yesterday.

thanx to nura,

i manage to cut those leads (:

oh yeah !

and something scary happen yesterday.

i dont wanna talk about it.

ii just pray that shirley is fine.

im so worried about her lar.

okie..

great..

ii dunch think ii can continue blogging!

my eyes are really closing !

what the hell helll heellll ~~

AHHH ! D:

stay awake ting ting !!

AWAKKKEEEE !! D:

i love you so deeply much, but do you? 7:06 AM

finally is thursday ! :D:D:D:D

chiong for today..

AHHH !!

so many things to clear,

so limited time to do it.

yesterday was fucking pissed to the max.

mortgage manager say,

"just batch down as per normal luh..is the same anyway"

than after lunch,

another mortgage manager say,

"ting ah,boss want all the acceptance to reach tampines by 4pm"

WHAT THE FUCK !!

ii straight away give attitude.

what am ii?

ROBOT KIA ISSIT?

thats the problem when you need to report to so many ppl at work.

last time was only sharon and shirley.

now,

sharon,shirley,jasmine,ken and sebastian! -.-

ii can die anytime sia..

4awhile ting ting here,

4awhile ting ting there!

than fucking augustian make mie so piss !!!

that ii feel like slapping him!

ii told my gangs,

me:i fucking wanna slap augustian.

Mel:slap with what?

Rina:slap using ur boobie?

me: I LET DOG LICK MY BOOBS ALSO WONT LET HIM TOUCH!

than all stare ! O.O ..

yea..

this is how we talk in the office.

very vulgar.

very horny. -.-

after 3months of being MIA,

Julian emailed me!

than ii sms him,

so we did talk last time over the phone. (:

nice nice..

but about work again luh..

at least his not MIA anymore

and his going reservice sooonn.

LOL !

fail ii sure laugh ! :x

jiayou jiayou Julian ! :x

i love you so deeply much, but do you? 7:10 AM

im having pig intestine powder for breakfast noww ! :D

okie..

is actually a direct translation from chinese "zhu chang fen" :x

nth to do with PIGS okie !

and i didnt tio whine FLU like KITARO okie ! :x

and its from jb!!!

AHHH !

uu wont get to eat such nice food in sg.

seriously,

is a double no no.

talking about kitaro,

she finished up the remaining half of my mash potato from polly yesterday ! D:

is MINE can? ._.

and she even wanna force me to finish up when she use my spoon to eat it.

and shes actually sick. ._.

NO WAY CAN? D:

give me back my favourite mash potato uu meanie ! D:

awww..

so today is WEDNESDAY ! ^^

reaching friday soon !

and somebody actually say,

"wo qi dai friday"

LOL!

silly dumb dumb ! (:

might be going to bugis after work today with the rest of the gang.

gtg get kai shuan a marriage gift luh.

his ROM is this coming saturday luh.

but what to buy?

all of us just got no idea.

oh well,

lets just go and see bahs (:

shooppinngg shooppinggg shoooppinggg shhooppingg shooppingggg !!

ahh..

im sure there will be a big hole in my pocket this month. (:

thats all for today!

tata :D

shes in lurve with the song,

david cook - come back to me

i love you so deeply much, but do you? 7:02 AM

finally freaking monday is over.

and im gonna be very bz today ! D:

coz ii left the office superb early yesterday.

strike 6.30pm than ciaoz.

even when my manager is beside me,

i bet she knows that im going home so she purposely come beside me n say,

Manager:ting ting,you still own me the data for Jan,Feb and Mar horr..

me:*packing my stuff* .. yea yea.. ii know .. ii know.. ii will do it tomorrow.

manager:you better finish up tomorrow horr..

me:okie okie.. ii got to rush edi.. byes..

i just take my bag,

rush out of the office door,

get a cab n BYE !

oh yeah,

that data thingy..

n'b c'b'b..

is not even MY job !

its HERS !

boss asked her to do !!!

than she push it to me!

PUBOR SIA !

what am ii ?

a robot issit? ._.

why on earth theres such a bloody boss? ._.

and when i did a good job,

the credit goes to her.

when i did badly,

she will push the blame to me ! _l_

buey tahan to the max sia..

another 3days to reach friday !!

jiayou ting ting!!

i got superb lots of things to clear this week!

coz im going on my leave next monday and tuesday.

and NTH gonna stop me from it !

oh yeah ! oh yeah !

AZRINA will be back today !!

woohooo !! xD

im so excited can can can?!!

ahh.. noise !!

is gonna be noisy again!!

japheth gonna get it !! =P

happie happie ! (:

and nura too will be back from her urgent leave yesterday!

and and,

theres meeting today !

gonna get to see daniel ! x3

so happieeee..

teehee !

lunch for today is my maid home cook fried rice with luncheon meat ! (:

update more when im back from work ! (:

tata guys !

i love you so deeply much, but do you? 6:58 AM

and when everything goes so complicated now.

uu just dunno what to say or do.

dunno what to answer,

dunno what to say.

because everything i said might not be the real things or feeling.

it might be bcoz im just trying to give excuses to cover the fugly side of myself.

i wanted a guy hu will lurve me with his everything.

give up everything,

even his life,

just for me.

a guy hu will cuddle me whenever im feeling down,

wipe my tears away for me,

make sure that im asleep b4 he ends his day.

always let me walk inside,

and him,

walking outside with so many cars passing by just to make sure im safe.

hold my hand,

to make sure i wont get lost,

or felt alone.

a guy hu willing to accept my everything.

never care about how ii look like.

how ii dress up myself,

and said that im cute even if ii myself know ii look badly n awful on that particular day,

or all the time.

a guy hu enjoy my singing,

no matter its nice or out of tune.

accept me playing game,

and leaving him aside.

doing nothing.

keeping quiet,

waiting patiently for me to entertain him.

a guy hu drove over 300km,

n reached my doorsteps in 1hour+,

just to say sorry.

just to make sure im alright.

not knowing how dangerous it is to drive soo fast,

all he care were the hurt that he made,

and the amendment that he want to amend for hurting me.

no matter rain or storm,

he never fail to keep me save and warm,

just like cuddling a new born baby in your arm.

even if his broke,

penniless,

he never fail to buy me a little gift,

just to see that sweet smile on my face.

a guy hu definitely bring me around,
telling his friend that,

"shes my wife".

dont care about his pride,

kneel down in public area,

in front of soo many ppl,

just to get me to forgive him,

when it was me who vent my anger at him.

make sure i wont get hungry,

wash my clothes when im in his house.

wash the dishes when i know its suppose to be a girl job.

make the bed.

play songs that ii like before i sleep.

will a guy in this world do such things to YOU?

or does such guy actually exist?

it does.

in my life now.

but it was me,

who hurt him day by day,

deeper and deeper.

just because i dont see our future,

just because of my selfishness,

i never get to see the naturally smile on his face again.

even if i love another guy now,

his still there,

in the corner,

waiting and praying that i will be back like how i used to love him last time.

contacting my family members,

to make sure they take good care of me.

throw his pride away,

just to get me back.

what happen to you dear girl?

dont you always wanted someone who love you this much,

instead of you loving another guy who dont even love you that much?

what had become to you?

why did you turn into a monster?

a person who is heartless,
cold blooded.

did you change because of the realistic world?

or its that just another excuses?

just like what he say,

"where is that cute little girl who love me last time?"

"where is my darling who had always been really sweet and care for me?"

i dont know.

i seriously dont.

what do i really want?

what do i really need?

my heart is not here another.

i know.

and i admit that i fall for another guy.

i know i hurt you deeply.

in such a short time,

say dont love means dont love.

im sorry.

i really do.

but if we are really meant to be together,

we will.

or maybe its me who dont deserve your love at all.

please please take good care of your health.

and remain the happy guy that i once know.

i love you so deeply much, but do you? 7:50 PM

received nura nura msg this morning.

shes on urgent leave today! D:

sian sia..

rina havent come back.

than nura going on urgent leave today. D:

knock out at 8+pm last nite. =x

yes..

very early.

told uu ii was extremely tired what.

and ii manage to download witch yoo hee another 2 more songs. ^^

my favourite - my destiny !

is nice can ! (:

but due to my stupid flash player setting,

ii cant continue watching ! D:

have to wait until my flash player not sot sot 1st ! D:

is really a nice drama.

but frankly speaking,

not as nice as goong.

AHHH !

korean movie rox can ! x3

gonna be bz at work today again.

jiayou ting ting ! (:

counting down to FRIDAY again !!

cant wait to see him.

love it! x3

i love you so deeply much, but do you? 6:55 AM

omfg!

ii freaking like my new blogskin can ! <3

is totally PURPLE !

was playing audi earlier + went in maple to slack with xuan and the rest of the guildmate (:

maple is getting boring day by day. -.-

heaven asked me to pm yukari just now in maple.

i was wondering why so i did not do it.

5mins later,

yukari pm-ed me.

LOL.

she was actually asking if im the one she doubt flirting with mushy last time when they are together.

and ii said yes.

so she was just trying to apologise luh.

but is been awhile edi lar..

and it doesnt matter okie (:

slept at 12+am,

and

woke up at 5am this morning. x.x

just to pei him.

but really buey tahan.

and he asked me to go sleep. -.-

than woke up at 7+am again.

my niece lar.

noisy sia! -.-

woke me up!

aikss..

AHHH !

and is freaking monday tomorrow again ! D:

nway,

i hope next week time flies really FAST !

coz ii really seriously extremely super d duper CANT WAIT for my leave ! :O

hopefully everything goes smoothly bahs ! (:

time for my bath ! (:

update again tomorrow! x3

i love you so deeply much, but do you? 4:29 PM

work was as bz as always yesterday,

left office at around 8.30pm ._.

BUT !

i was like freaking fucking happieeee !! :D

because ii manage to solve two big probs.

LOL!

tio scold by Credit Ops alot of time.

showing me attitude but ii dunch care..

ii just have to be humble and do what im suppose to do luh. (:

and a manic 2 days solving this case,

we manage to disburse the $ into customer account edi !!

AHHH !!

letting go a big stone that ii had been carrying for 2 long days ! (:

*clap clap*

and when ii thought my friday will be better even do ii still need to stay back till 8pm,

you called me.

scolded me than hang up my fone.

i was frustrated,

called back,

scolded you back n hang up.

leaving the fone ring there when you called.

no point answering edi.

it wasnt my fault,

but you just put the fucking blame on me.

no point explaining.

im sick and tired of it.

reached home,

didnt wanna go up,

so ii just sat downstairs with my maid,

smoking,

letting go whatever stuff that is in my heart.

dunch seems to help at all.

you abandon me for the whole entire year in jb back when im 17.

when uu are happily staying at sg with daddie and bro.

throwing me alone with my maid.

uu did came back to jb once a week,

not coming to see me,

BUT,

ur bf.

am ii not your child?

you answer me that.

am ii not a gud gurl?

than what am ii to you?

somebody for you to use or a person to let you vent ur anger on?

that abandon hurt will never be forgotten.

im stress at work.

nobody in the family knows.

ii didnt wanna tell or add on to ur burden.

so pleaaseee stop stepping all over me when all ii needed was PEACE !!

i love you mummie but please understand me.

dunch be such a biased towards bro as he will ended up being a spoilt brat.

im quiet but that doesnt mean i dunch have feeling.

im covered by mist now.

just let me walk out of it.

than ii will be back to my ownself (:

thats all ii can say.

SO YEAH !

is saturday.

saturday and sunday=GAMING DAY!! <3

audi time ! ^^

i love you so deeply much, but do you? 8:41 AM

the day that i had been waiting for ...

FUCKING FRRRRIIDAAAAYYYY !!! :D:D:D

left office at around 9pm yesterday.

can die !

keep yawning n yawning.

both side also needed me !

but do i have the time to spare?

thanx nura for helping me (:

and may may hu keep sending email to cheer mie up ! (:

awww..

sweet rite? x3

oh yeah,

baby hu never fail to sms me,

to encourage and cheer me up even if i din reply his sms.

n chris hu keep pushing me up,

and never let me fall ! (:

and daniel,

and theres my bennie er zi,

and mei tong+kitaro..

awww.. frwens !!! x33

lurve them to bits ! :D

guess thats the only things that is giving me the PUSH ! (:

ting ting is strong okie..

so dunch worried about me.

i will be great.

thanx to you guys (:

muacks x3

i love you so deeply much, but do you? 7:17 AM

raining on a thursday morning.

how nice if i would be able to stay in bed with my cosy blanket,with pillow and my soft toy around mie.

bless (:

but nahh..

im preparing myself to work.

a hot cup of tea in front of me.

its getting cold i guess.

ii wonder, when will ii able to be like that cup of tea,

minutes by minutes,

the smoke dissapear.

things had been really havoc.

each day was like a manic fuck up monday.

work load is getting from more to all.

how could uu just treat me like an invisible gurl?

uu know im struggling but instead of helping me,

you tones up my work load.

even if im capable,

even if ii never say NO to uu whenever uu ask me to do things,

still,

im collapsing.

tears just roll down my cheek yesterday in the office again.

kept telling myself,

"is okie silly, be strong, uu can do it"

but on a superb extremely fake smile on my face.

"no no.. dunch vent ur anger on other ppl"

smile more.. =]

how long is this gonna go on?

work sux..

i just have to drag myself to work each n every single day.

my leave was approved.

luckily,

im still able to take leave.

so yeap,

it will be on the 25th and 26th of May. (:

monday n tuesday !

im fucking gonna do whatever ii wanna do on that day!!

movie any1? :D

im counting down to next weeeeekkkk...

cant wait!!!

yea.. ii said..

cant wait !!!!

cant uu see it??!!

i said,

I CANT WAIT FOR MY LEAVE !!!!!!! :D

omg !!!

say liao..

cant waaaaaaaaaaaaaiiiiiiiitttt..

rite -.-

fucking madness in the morning.

ignore me pl0x. -.-

byes.

i love you so deeply much, but do you? 7:15 AM

finally,

after almost 1year working in this company,

ii broke down and cried yesterday.

guess im really overstress ler.

lucky only kai shuan and augustian hu is left.

and kai shuan came n sayang my head when im crying.

how nice if is some1 ii lurve hu do that to mie when im down. =]

work is like getting more n more each day.

ii dunch know how long more can i take it.

and theres rumours in the company,

saying that im resigning.

every1 came and ask me why n what happen.

zzz.

i was like "WTF! hu told uu?"

yes, i did thought of resigning,

but i havent totally give up ler ! ._.

why so fast got rumours de.

zzz..

slept alone without YOU keeping accompany last nite.

it was like the 1st time eversince ii know you.

that kind of feeling sux.

ii just burst out crying again.

daniel sms mie,

telling me he was sad,

coz his great grandma just pass away in the hospital last time.

my heart torned.

is like,

where are all the happie moment that we once had?

work stress,

go home also breakdown.

can ii just die?

thats what i wish for now..

i love you so deeply much, but do you? 7:06 AM

counting down to friday..

gee.. but is only f*cking tuesday.

work till around 8pm yesterday.

waited for daddie to come fetch me home (:

work work work..

meeting meeting meeting..

i can DIE!

it was like totally quiet in the office.

even when japheth past by,

no more "do the wave! do the wave!

i bet he miss it ! :x

so im holding on to something which seems possible,

but another side,

seems impossible.

so is possible or impossible?

no answer given ler ! ><

sua !

just move on like that.

see whats the outcome.

nway,ii am happie arhs (:

thanx to that "someone" <3

i love you so deeply much, but do you? 7:09 AM

another monday again !

fk monday _l_ .

rina wun be at work..

ahhh... definitely very very extremely quiet !

BORING !!!

for the whole week !!! D:

ii cant imagine what will be like for this week !

siansation !

had been playing audi and maple on sat n sun.

audi going to lvl6 [ and im seriously noob at it D: ]

and maple FINALLY reached lvl160 ! ^^ .

happy dao siao ! ^^

game game game ! :x

hmm..

things got sooo complicated between us.

ii dunch know what is the status now.

but seriously,

a stupid and innocent love will also make me smile (:

probably,

this is what we called,

undefined lurve.

i love you so deeply much, but do you? 7:03 AM

HOORAYYY !!

ii got my new pc already !

is cooooollll can???!!!

wireless mouse and keyboard !

23 inch screen !!

and is like totally BLACK ! :D

3GB ram.

1GB graphic card !

so is like..

omg omg omg !!

SAY GOODBYE TO LAGNESS ! :D

okie..

im crazy !

oh yeah,

heaven !!!

can play audi edi ! ^^

i love you so deeply much, but do you? 8:02 PM

and than again !

is MONDAY ! =/

gud thing about it is..

i dunch have to stay at home n rot !

my frwens are in the office to talk to mie..

but bad things is...

TONS of work to do..

and ii cant get enough sleep ! x.X

so gud or bad? D:

freaking thunder scared me this morning.

woke up even b4 my alarm rang. ._.

right,

im afraid of thunder n lightning. ><

dunch ask me why.

im just scare. x.x

okay,

weekend was so so..

was playing maple.

slacking and doing nothing. ._.

than was in msn.

and ii guess alot of stupid fool in msn hu tio virus.

keep sending those kind of advertise link.

IRRITATING CAN? =/

so yeah,

im currently watching witch yoo hee (:

a korean drama show.

not bad ! not bad ! (:

k then..

my hot tea is waiting for me!

breakfast time :D

i love you so deeply much, but do you? 7:03 AM

and with the help from kai shuan and chris,

ii manage to fixed my pc by my own hands!

omfg !

am ii smart or what? =P

well,

is still kinda laggie but at least ii can on this freaking pc than letting it cover by dust (:

STILL,

i wan a new pc !!

ahhhhhh..

pc pc pc !

game game game! D:

n YES,

labour day's was ~~fucking~~ bored !

i love you so deeply much, but do you? 9:12 AM